My world

Monday, April 06, 2009

Hello world. I'm feeling just a tinsy little
bit emotional. And you guessed it. I'm
leaving Freedom for a while, far away
from my loved ones and friends.

Right now it's a queer feeling that can't be
defined exactly by mere words. It's the
excitement school kids have for the
very first day at school. Yet, like a little
kid, I just don't wish to say goodbye to
mommy. I'm crying my eyes out, wishing
that this never would happen. Wishing
that they'll just let me off. Everyone
would say something like, 'It's just 7
weeks!' 'You won't get to see civilisation
for 2 weeks only what.' Yes, you're
calling me a whimp.

Sigh, maybe I really am. Freedom just
means so much to me, huh. Everything
doesn't matter at all. All I know very well,
is that I'll miss my Baby so terribly. I really
can't help feeling my eyes well up,
though I lost my tearducts quite some
time ago. I can't help feeling worried
about her, cause I can't be there to
take care of her. Be there for her when
she really needs me. Protect her, love
her. Or maybe the truth is that I really need
her, like how I need air.

Back then, every night for me was a
struggle to fall asleep. Because I feel so
cold, too far from your warmth and comfort.
To this, a song rises up from within.

Baby, please listen to the song, 'Selfish'.
It really describes how I'm feeling. Most of it.


Goodnight world. Till next time.
Just can't wait for hell to burn over.

dimwit at 4/06/2009 12:33:00 AM


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